And with this fire that is getting colder tonight.

A friend once told me that he never gave up on the relationship because he believes in it, and he knows that the love is real. I think that’s really cool, to believe in the love they have, despite all the shit he has gone through and all the misgivings and stuff. It’s really awesome how a seemingly playful person like him could actually tolerate and still go on with it. And I was actually moved by those words, coming out from this friend especially.

With times like these, I really wonder how much space do I take up in your mind ♥

Because you never do tell me anything.

(Why can’t you just love me back?)

Youre gonna set my heart in cardiac arrest anytime.

Bad hand-leg-eye-mouth-brain coordination whenever it comes to you, everything goes wrong.

But you make everything seem right, but maybe just too fast for me.

I wanted us to be golden.

Intensities in ten cities.

All in the same category! Hehe :]

No, not even a subtle hint.

It will only get worse (but I just always still let you in)
You make me feel alone, and lonely (on any days worse than these)
And with these hours (that everyone else spends without a finch)

It seems so that this subtle inadequacy just seems more opaque.
So you know, I’ll do anything I can for you, just as I have before.
So you know, you’ll have me through bad times.

I can be with all these people but still feel like the only person here. And with times like these, I wish you’re here. And when I think of you, I’d wish that you’d think of me a little more, and with this heart that trembles and shakens when the wind comes forth, I hope harder. I’m trying to convince myself that I don’t care anymore but I do, and with each time, grows this frustration. And this frustration here, also almost always manage to override any other emotion, that I have encrusted, and will, like leaves, shrivel and fall.

I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you to say that there was no one else that you could ever be with and that you wanted to be with me.
“
— One Tree Hill

The dream-maker

Of the many memories that we’ve shared, and of the roads that we have taken, somehow, circumstances are still the same.
And after this phase, it seems to me that these roads are still parallel.
We, never crossed that line.

And I know that, because every fire you potentially sparked out, really does go away.
And I know I’m already unafraid.
And I know I’m always less-than-perfect.
And I know,
so much better.

To see that you’re discrediting me because you never see, or maybe you do, but really
can’t care less.

But why can’t you just make a better semblance of a happy ending.

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We are golden!

Maybe you were never cut out to be real, and hence never will be.

It was the last school anthem I would ever stand up for today, I know I will miss school.

):

And I know I will miss:

• Just sitting in class having a tutorial session together
• Always complaining about how the air is really musky in NL2 in the morning
• Training to school in the morning and listen to jx being a naggybackside when I’m late (and when she is, it’s okay)
• Zhang’s epic :D face when watermelon is around.
• Putting my arms around the class girls and just walking together to the library 8-)
• Rating almost everybody, making severely mean jokes.
• Laughing at the class boys’ crazy hardcore nonsense (nonstop one)
• Really loud music blasting away in class when teacher is not around
• Talking rubbish with the malay food/waffle stall aunties
• Seeing The Nerd get bullied while sleeping in a cyclical motion, completely oblivious about his friends leaving
• Fat D being just really for his epic dumb-looking face
• 15 bottles’ awkwardness
• Texting lizard in school (and also my pathetic attempts to spot his sexed up hair)
• Hearing sherilyn’s loud laughter from afar (actually you look tired most of the time)
• Eileen covering my eyes and asking me to guess who she is (when nobody else can be as childish)

I like my class and today’s class outing ended on quite an abrupt note, and I was sad to leave them, because it kinda meant that we would all go our seperate ways. Typing this, I already feel sad about how I’m not going school tomorrow and we’re never going to sit together in that particular class sitting arrangement anymore :(

Okay fuck this, but I know I will really miss the class.

Can’t see why I’d do anything without you.

Turn off the tv and think for yourself.

All those feelings, those yesterday feelings.