Finch

Can’t really put across this complicated feeling I have in me now, I can’t really say insecure, more of edgy. and not so much of happy, as that would be grossly inaccurate, ok whatever, maybe more of a melancholic feeling. I think I like to talk about what I’m feeling right now so maybe you guys have a rough gauge of what kind of mood I’m in now, to be mentally prepared for this text that might just probably set your heart into cardiac arrest. (riiiight) Guess it’s just emotions taking me over at this pathetic timeslot where more than half the world(yes only my friends) are asleep.

To be blatantly honest here, three nights ago was one of the worst nights ever, yeah looked at someone in the eye and thought, “You are a fucking asshole.” and someone thought the exact same way about me as well. Yeah I didn’t really know what to (appear to) feel right in front of you. Nope, we no longer read each other through our eyes. Nope, we no longer know what each other are up to these days. And yeah, you probably see me as an old friend now. Whatever, what’s with this special little short note anyway, lol.

Really just a sidenote, I feel like drinking the “scam-money” viscous as hell(i mean the foam) banana milkshake in school!! ): It’s not really that gratifying…but I like how it is anyway, haha.

Amidst talking about food, on another continent of my own universe, was me trying to talk to an old friend, and my one best friend actually. Doubts she checks this space of mine anymore now. She’s one of the strongest girls I’ve met in my entire life. In fact yeah, she’s really just the most gutsy. What I have for her now is probably regret. I came across this quote in this book, which says “Some people are fragile as- as butterflies and sensitive and it’s your responsibility not to destroy them.” “Just because you can.” Damn straight it went through my mind. The first person that came to my mind was her. Well, I broke her trust,  I was a friend who necessitated her through part of her life, it’s as though we had partaken in every activity you can call bimbotic, haha. We were friends who’ve been through thick and thin. Recently, it became pretty evident that she’s not doing fine.. and tbh I’m really concerned about it. I want this girl to have a bright future, to be happy. I want that life to be the last stop for her, for I believe she was not meant to be that implacable after all. And, I have just about the best birthday present to hopefully placate her this year:)

Yeah guys, I know, complete waste of time here, cause none of this is prolly any of your business, oops.

Later.